Au Naturel

I am in the beginning of my "hard core" diet. Despite being busy and not exercising, I had made conclusion that what I ate during last few months was the reason behind my low stamina.

I moved in to my own new house and so excited of having quiet comprehensive kitchen that I'll do the cooking like mak-mak. You know, like rice, lauk-pauk, sayur cooked with coconut milk and sambal.

So, last weekend, I had made a plan to eat clean and natural. The target is only for a month, but hopefully, I can continue afterward. For now, I want to regain my energy back.

I think this is the first time in my life, that I want to go through a DIET not solely for beauty and weight loss. So the objective of this new diet is not to lose weight, or getting flawless skin, but to eat as natural as possible. I will try my best to minimize cooking and processed food. That means, the cooking method will be either boil or steam. I will consider grilling or baking if I have more time. As for the food, I'll go with the one with 0% GST. Get it? Unprocessed one, except for the bread.

I was quiet skeptical at first, since I don't know how my taste buds will react to this "fresh" food. But interesting enough, I like them. Maybe it's been too long that my body depriving those nutrients that once I ate it, I instantly feel energetic. I am still sleepy and lazy but at least when I want to do something, I'll just do it.

Hopefully, by the end of this session, I'll be healthier and happier.

Sweet 28

Yesterday was my birthday, and I wasn't celebrating. I was in the middle of important job to setup programs for LIVE operations. The best meal I had yesterday was just Subway sandwich I had to gobble up before resuming my work. Luckily, so far, till now, there's no complaint.

I don't know why lately I always feel lazy. Like seriously, I have no motivation to do work. It's not that I'm having issues or unsolvable things in the office, but I always long for relaxation time at home, on the bed. Gah!

Is it because of the age? I am getting older, yes. That's it. I guess that's why.

There are so many changes I want to do but to resign job is not one of it currently. I've been assigned one crucial project with one important client. Do I need to worry? I suppose to, but like I said, I am too lazy to worry. Now I am worried of myself.

Usually, when I have a tendency to worry on something, I'll prepare everything and work on it successfully. But now, I really just want to rolling on the bed and get some looooong sleep. I don't know though. What is wrong with me. Is it depression?

And I am getting forgetful too. I always forgot what I bought and end up buying similar things again. Worst, I lost them waayy before I can use them. And end up buying again. Why???????

And just now during meeting, one of the system I developed with love, sweat and blood was unusable due to poor user's cooperation. Not my fault. The design was particularly from my client and the system were distributed among their vendors. Now vendor pleaded not to use it. We got the money and my boss is not less happy but I was the programmer, I do feel wasted. My love, sweat and blood is wasted.

Hopefully, I'll get bonus. I want to pay down my loan. And by end of 20's, I really do hope I'll get some financial freedom. Not totally, but at least, I can take days off without having to think about money and financial commitment.